part 29: (sabreen)

**”Bismillahir rahmaanir raheem”
-in the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful-**

Sabreen was shocked. Her father was breathing right in her face. He creeped under the blankets with her and she didn’t even realise it. Her eyes immediately looked towards the door that she had left open. It was now tightly shut.

Sabreen began to panic. What in the world was going on? She was confused and terrified all at the same time and sam seemed to be enjoying her reaction.

Sabreen didn’t know whether to scream or to cry as she felt his hands down on her thighs underneath the blanket.

Is this man sick? I’m he’s daughter. What is he doing? Where is mama? Sabreen had all these wild thoughts in her head.

She thought of screaming but her throat was dry and her chest had tightened again. As much as she wanted to, she couldn’t.

She could smell the drunkenness all over him. The stench made her want to puke. It was as if he just stepped out of a barrel of beer and into her bed.

His hands were slowly moving upwards and coming closer to her private parts. Sabreen stiffened….

“Come on now little brat… Don’t be like your mother now… Stupid witch doesn’t want to see to my needs, I’ll show her… Her daughter can fulfill it much better…..” He said evily in his soberless voice..

Sabreen wanted to cry. Is this what drinking does to a person? Does it intoxicate a person to the extent that they’ll even commit incest with their own daughter?

Is that what beth and sam were bickering about when they reached home? Did beth not want to fulfil his desires and now he was frustrated and out of desperation was ready to let himself go on his virgin daughter?

Sabreen tried again to scream but sam immediately put his hand over her mouth…

“Scream you little brat and I’ll make your life a living hell… Do you understand me? So just shut that mouth of yours and no-one will get hurt.” Sam demanded in a very serious tone while pushing his hand harder onto her precious parts.

“Do you understand me?” He repeated

Sam noticed the fear in sabreens eyes and that gave him even more satisfaction.

“Answer me dammit? Are you going to play along and be a good girl? Or do I need to hurt you real bad today?” He persisted

Sabreen couldn’t move. she was hurting as his hands clenched hard onto her now.

“Are you going to be a good girl now?” His voice was softer but more demanding now

Sabreen managed to nod with extreme fear deep within about what was going to happen next.

Was there any hope for her? Was there any God out there really? Hadn’t she prayed so hard earlier to be saved from this hell hole which was supposed to be her home?

“I’m going to remove my hand from your mouth now little one. But remember our deal. If you don’t scream, no-ones gona get hurt… And besides, your mother had so much to drink tonight, there’s no way she can hear you anyway.” He laughed

She was weeping and sobbing inside as sam removed his hand from her mouth.

Sam began undoing his belt and every movement began to traumatise her.

He lifted up her t-shirt and sabreen could feel herself going through some kind of an anxiety attack. She silently prayed harder this time…

“Dear God!!!! I know there is one out there… Please dear God… Who else is there to save me from this monster right now…. I cannot lose my virginity to my own father. How will I ever live with myself in this house after this? I will not live if he does anything to me.”

When sabreen prays, she falls away from this world, she becomes numb and focuses only on her prayer. She has never been taught about a God, but she prayed to Him anyway. And she was yet again so deep in her prayer that she didn’t realise that sam was actually not on her anymore. Until she opened her eyes to the sound of a huge thump right beside her bed.

She was shocked and relieved all the same time to find tony right infront of her with a look of extreme anger on his face and sam was lying stationary on the ground.

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14 thoughts on “part 29: (sabreen)”

  1. Ya اللَّهُ …….. This post gave me the shivers …. !!!!! She was saved …. But there r soo many out there who aren’t as lucky as her !!! Its soo soo sad !!
    May اللَّهُ grant her n her family hidayat !! آمين

    جَزَاكَ اللهُ خَيْرًا

    Waitig for another post !!! Pretty plz !!!! Our beloved , most generous Authoress !! Plz plz plz !!!!!

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    1. Ameen….
      Its true. So many have to live with themselves after being sexually abused by people they have to see on a regular basis. May Allah make it easy for the abused and either grant hidayah to the abusers or take them severely to task for what they’re doing


  2. I was hoping against hope since yesterdays post that he doesn’t rape her! The story really invokes deep emotions. Well written masha اللّـه! I don’t comment often but ur blogs are exceptional الْحَمْدُ لِلَّهِ … May اللّـه protect all from these type of things in life.


  3. Assalamualaykum

    Haven’t commented in a really long time x_x but I read every post and a thumbs up to the author for covering the different aspects in this blog that normally society shuns..

    One of my student is in a very similar situation as Sabreen and it’s so sad, both her parents drink and she lives with her granny who is old ,when the mother is angry and drunk she just hits her and verbally abuses her..being a small girl starting grade 1 this year and going through such a traumatic experience breaks the childs self-esteem..
    Best way one of her teachers counselled her was by making her read Durud Shareef and duas because sometimes in class the other students not understanding what’s wrong when she starts crying or shouts because she is angry and doesn’t want to talk to anyone the teacher has to take her aside and calm her down while occupying the other kids is not easy..

    Allah make it easy for everyone in similar situations and guide the perpetrators to stop and realise their wrongdoings, Aameen


    1. Wslm.
      This is soo soo sad to hear. Are her parents muslim?
      Most definitely it breaks the childs self esteem and if she is not councelled or help at this early stage, it will affect her gravely for the rest of her life.
      She will feel unwanted and insecure and she will continuosly have anxiety attacks. Any small matter will be dramatized, not because she wants to dramatize it, but because of the extreme fear she feels inside


  4. Slmz there dear authoress!!! Plz be so kind and subscribe me to your blog!! Amazing work so far!! Your r truly gifted and talented MashAllah!


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