part 48: (sabreen)

**”Bismillahir rahmaanir raheem”
-in the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful-**

The rain was beginning to come down much harder now and then a loud thunder burst got sabreen abit panicked.

She held onto her knees tighter and thought hard about what her next move should be.

Should she just sit here in the rain until it eventually stops?

She glared up at the sky through the hard drops that were falling on her face.

The last time she felt the rain fall down on her, it was an exhilarating feeling. She enjoyed every drop and felt free and happy.

Today was the total opposite. She panicked more and more with every drop that fell down. She was afraid. Afraid of so many things. Afraid of getting wet. Afraid of getting sick. Afraid of what her outcome was going to be. Afraid of hilda finding her. Afraid of being sent back home. Afraid of being tortured any more.

She wasn’t free and happy this time round. This time she was trapped and very very unhappy. Sad infact.

And by the looks of it, this rain wasn’t going to subside any time soon.

And just when she thought it wouldn’t get any worse, tiny little ice cubes began falling. First slowly and then the speed gradually picked up. It started to come down much harder. It was hailing now.

Sabreen instinctively picked up her plastic bag of belongings and rushed for shelter. She went around to the front of the building where the changing rooms were and ran into the bathroom.

She felt a little safe for a while. It was dry but the loud roars of thunder could still be heard from inside and the banging of what sounded like much larger hail stones too.

Atleast she was much safer inside she thought.

But then a few other people started to take shelter in the bathrooms too.

Sabreen felt very conscious of herself suddenly. She felt uneasy and shifted around abit. She kept her gaze lowered so not to make any eye contact with anyone.

Maybe no-one was even looking at her, but she just felt that way. That everyones eyes were on her.

She heard some peoples muffled voices and imagined that they were gossiping about her. About the. Useless little ugly girl with the cleft that ran away and tried to hide in the bathrooms of the public football grounds.

Ofcourse no-one was talking about her. But sabreen had very little left of her self esteem. Actually she had no self esteem at all. She thought herself to be useless and ugly when she actually wasn’t. She was beautiful in a very special kind of way.

She couldn’t hear the people around her talking because the loud noise of the hail stones against the zink roof of the building made it rather difficult to hear anything.

But as the time passed, the hail seemed to have calmed down and the rain too.

It was then that sabreen heard a young boys voice saying: “hey! Aren’t you the little girl who’s lost? You’re wearing a pink t-shirt with a denim shorts. Your hair is light blonde like she explained and yes.. Its you… You have a cleft on the one side of your face.. I hope she’s still around here.. Your mums looking for you all over. Come on!”

He took hold of her hand and pulled her out of the bathroom.

Sabreen was too shocked to first of all process what was going on.

“There she is…” He shouted as he pointed towards his left..

Sabreen looked up and noticed hildas car in a distance. She wanted to run again. She couldn’t go back… She had come this far.

But it was too late. The boy was waving frantically and screaming, trying to get hildas attention.

Hilda was gone hysterical when she came out of the shower and noticed sabreen missing.

She drove around all stressed out and thinking the worst.

She stopped at almost every passer by to ask if they’d seen the little girl in pink and a denim shorts with light blonde hair and bronze streaks who had a cleft on one side of her face.

She had almost lost all hope when it began thundering and pouring but now spotted a young teenage boy holding sabreen and frantically trying to get her attention.

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Authors note:
Please make me maaf for late post. The reason I took a sudden break last week was because my husband got suddenly ill and its been quite hectic. Unfortunately he has once again been admitted to hospital so I can’t promise a proper time for posts until he has recovered completely. I will however try my best inbetween hospital, a dead battery and poor network. So please bare with me and remember us in your duas..

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30 thoughts on “part 48: (sabreen)”

  1. Awww …… Soo sorry abt ur hubby !!!
    May اللَّهُ grant complete shifa – speedily … آمين

    Don’t stress n worry abt posts ….. We understand !!

    @least Hilda found her …….Sabreen should just tel Hilda abt her fears !!!!
    I hope she sees some happineSs now !!!

    جزاك اللهُ خيراً

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