part 62: (hanzalah)

**”Bismillahir rahmaanir raheem”
-in the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful-**

“With your permission, I’d like to call in your husband before I discuss anything further?” The doctor spoke with a serious look on her face.

Naseema had no option. She understood that this was serious and who better to have beside her than her husband.

The hospital made a call for abdullah to come in. It took a while because he had to lock up the shop and get a friend to see to habeeba. Hanzalah was in school and since naseema was in hospital, habeeba would accompany him to the shop everyday.

Things were hectic this way but the family had to sacrifice and have patience. Allah would definitely reward them for their patience in these difficult moments.

And just when they thought that things would get better, it only got worse.

“Mr and mrs gujiwala. I’m afraid that we found your cancer a little too late and even though we’ve tried to help.. Unfortunately the cancer has spread to the bones and is slowly reaching the lungs and oesophagus aswel. At this stage there isn’t much we can do.. At the rate the cancer is spreading, I’m afraid to let you know that its only a matter of time now…” The doctor looked sympathetically towards the 2 of them that looked back at her in utter shock.

What the doctor had just said hadn’t settled in. There wasn’t any reaction for a very long time and then abdullah said: “innaa lillaahi wa innaa ilayhi raaji’oon”

-surely to Allah do we belong and unto Him is our return-

Naseema looked at him with horrow filled eyes. And then the tears started flowing uncontrollably.

“I’m sorry naseema. I really am!” The doctor said as she stroked naseemas arm. She then left the 2 of them to have some time of their own to deal with all of it.

“She must be mistaken.. Maybe we should get another opinion.. I’m feeling well. Except for the slight stomach ache I get occasionally, I’m feeling better than before. It must just be an ulcer or something.” Naseema was in denial. She could not accept that she had just a few more months, weeks or maybe even days before she has to leave her loved ones behind.

Abdullah didn’t answer her. He knew that the doctors knew better. That they’ve been doing tests and they wouldn’t mistaken such a thing.

He pulled her into an embrace and held tight onto her. He could feel naseemas body trembling and she could feel his. They both cried for as long as was possible and they cried out almost every tear that they thought they had left.

How did their once perfect life just go crumbling right before their eyes?

Naseema couldn’t believe that she wouldn’t be there to see her hanzalah complete school or become something and get married and have kids oneday.

She couldn’t accept that she was not going to see her little habeeba grow into a beautiful young girl. That she may not be there for her daughter when she attained puberty or when she gets married oneday.

She wouldn’t be there long enough to care for her husband who loved her so dearly. Her life was almost over…

“But the doctors don’t know everything. They could be wrong. They’re not Allah. How dare they tell me that I’m going to die soon. I’m not going to die. I’m going to live. And I’m going to leave this place right now and come home to my family who loves me and is waiting for me…” It was naseemas hysteria that was talking.

She was getting terribly emotional. She went on for quite some time until abdullah had to call the nurses and ask them to sedate her.

He was afraid that she would end up with a heart attack. Or something worse might happen to her.

Once naseema was calm and the medication set in and she was deep in a sleep, abdullah left for home.

He had to pick hanzalah up from school and habeeba up from his friend.

The dreaded thought crossed his mind. How was he going to explain to his kids that their mother was dying? This was the hardest thing he probably ever had to do in his life

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23 thoughts on “part 62: (hanzalah)”

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    silentliving posted: “**”Bismillahir rahmaanir raheem” -in the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful-**

    “With your permission, I’d like to call in your husband before I discuss anything further?” The doctor spoke with a serious look on her face.

    Naseema had no “

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  2. Ya Allah! My heart goes out to naseemas isnt easy to accept a loved 1 dying,especially a mother..no1 can replace a mothers love..
    Everytime I hear about any1 havin cancer in real also,the thought crosses my mind that theyv been told they only hav a certain period of time to live..but really,if we think of it,thats the case for all of us..we r healthy الحمد لله but we dont know wen death will come to us as well..iv seen healthy ppl dying b4 critically sick death isnt just a reality for sick ppl but for all of us..we need to b prepared for death at every given moment..May Allah take us in our best condition,n may the best day of our lives b the day we meet our beloved Allah..may we be eager for this meetin of beloved n beloved…آ مين ثم آمین

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    1. Ameen.. Thumma ameen.

      That’s so true. Sometimes healthy people go so much faster. Death is inevitable. We all need to be prepared.
      I personally know of someone who’s had cancer in almost every part of her body for over 13 years now but so many healthy people in her family passed on long before her while she’s still going strong mashallah


  3. This is the saddest post 😰😥😪. May Allah give shifaa to naseema and may he grant her family patience. Surely Allah can make miracles happen.
    Well written post miss authoress 👍 keep it up
    My favorite blog


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  4. ‎​إنا لله و إنا اليه راجعون

    Only اللَّهُ knows the exact time when we hav2 leave this world !!! Some one just told me that her neighbour was given 2 months to live …. But its been over 2 years and she’s well ​​​الحمد لله !!! So we cannot say wat can happen … Sometimes those who r perfectly healthy go b4 those who seem to b on their death bed !!! Let’s hope Naseema will b strong n pull thru for much longer … And b absolutely healthy too !!!

    جزاك اللهُ خيراً

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  5. Assalamualaykum

    I heard frm a father who has lost his son say that “the old people must die, but the young people can die”..
    This is so true, some people can be young and then all of sudden pass away..

    But we need to always have good hopes and think good of Allah..
    I knw of someone who was diagnosed with cancer but got cured completely even though sometimes it comes bck but he is a really strong person..
    Also one of my friends had cancer but Alhamdulillah through duas and therapy is cured today Alhamdulillah..

    So no matter who you are or wat illness you hve..remember to make dua, be strong like Naseemah and hve positive thoughts of Allah

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  6. This is a very emotional post coz I as a mother has been treated for cancer & I truely believe that its a big test from Allah & 100 % shifa is only in his hands & definitely everyones duaas too makes a big difference ….
    May Allah grant shifa to all those who are not well

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    1. Oh my word sister.. May Allah make it easy for you and your family and grant you aafiyah.
      This is exactly the comment I needed. Sumone who can relate to naseema and familys sufferings.


  7. very sad indeed. certainly we have our roles in this world as a mother or a wife and we all look forward to fulfilling them. We should not lose sight however that the our role first and foremost is to serve and return to our creator. As difficult as it sounds, this story and many reminders we get on a daily basis should continue to allow us to remain ready to leave this temporary world at any time. Death inevitably is part of life. we can only
    no denying that it is certainly a difficult task.
    May Allah swt make it easy for us all. Insha Allah

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