Tasha smiled when nick settled in the car. She was honestly and sincerely glad to have her only child with her again. She missed him so much.
Nick however, had an expressionless face. He slumped in the chair and turned his face to look out of the window.
He thought about the conversation that hanzalah and him just had. He marvelled at the wisdom and strength that hanzalah had despite them being around the same age. Hanzalah was right.. God.. whoever He was… had made things happen for a reason.
You cant change what happened nicholas. So theres no reason to keep beating yourself up about it. Pray to God for forgiveness and move on. Your future is upto you. Its upto you to choose to make things better with your family and to be successful. Dont mess up again. God is giving you another chance. You mess up this time… you dont know if He will give you any more chances again.
Leaving hanzalahs home was bittersweet. Nick would never before have thought that he would need the geekiest kid in school.
The closer they got to home, tight knots formed in nicks tummy.
Going home brought back terrible memories of that night. Of the fear he felt. Of everything that was just so wrong.
Tasha sensed this and put a comforting hand on nicks.
Its all going to be okay nicky… i will stand by you all through the way okay?
Nick reluctantly stepped off the car and followed tasha into the house like a lost puppy.
It felt worst than he expected being inside the house and nick suddenly felt the urge to puke. He was feeling suffocated in this supposed to be huge house.
You must be… im sure you havent ate anything in days…
Nick shook his head.
I just ate.
There was an uncomfortable silence in the air before tasha took a deep breath and pulled nick to the lounge.
Come on son. Theres alot we need to talk about.
Nick looked around.
Wheres tom? He know im back here?
It was tashas turn to shake her head.
No. He doesnt. The 2 of us are not exactly on speaking terms
Trouble in paradise?!
She took both of nicks hands in hers..
Son! Please talk to me. Tell me whats going on?
Whats there to tell?
Everything! Start at the beginning. Tell me where i went wrong!
I dont know mum. I was just lonely i guess. I needed to fit in. You were always too busy to care anyway.
But i gave you everything you needed_
Yeah?and what did i need? Money? Expensive clothes? The latest in technology? Is that what you thought i needed?
Nick laughed sarcastically and shook his head..
you dont get it do you?
It was silent for a while. Both in their own thoughts.
Youre always too busy for me mum. We dont ever do things as a family. We dont even eat together. You never ask about my day. You never care to find out if im alright. You only ever cared about yourself, your work and tom.
Thats not true nick. I care alot about you. You are my life.
Well then maybe you just dont know how to show you care. Maybe if you were there for me i wouldnt have turned to all the wrong avenues to feel wanted.
I see what youre doing here nick. You looking for someone to blame for the wrong youve done right? And who else to blame but me!
Well i think you both are to blame actually.
Both nick and tasha turned around to find tom standing at the door. In all their talk they hadnt heard him come in.
Tom dropped his broefcase carefully down and casually walked into the room. He sat down on the sofa infront of tasha and nick.
Whatever you did nick, was wrong and no-one is to blame for your recklessness but yourself.
He turned his focus to tasha.
And youre wrong too. Nick is right. Youre too involved in work and in yourself that you end up unintentionally neglecting those around you who care. You were such a different woman when i married you. You were fun and entertaininh and i loved spending time with you. But then you took up longer hours at work… and it wasnt even necessary becausr i earn enough to support all 3 of us and more. And you started becoming worse to be around. And im sure nick feels the same way. That youve adopted your work as your everything. When was the last time weve just been out as a family? Together?
Nicks at that age where he doesnt want to be seen with us anyway.
And what age is that?
Because according to the way i was brought up, youre never too old for family time.
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